rynne: (dear diary...)
In an extremely odd turnaround from, well, basically the past five or six years, I am much more on top of things in real life than I am in fandom. I have two holiday fic exchanges that I haven't even started yet (though on the plus side, I just finished reviewing my [livejournal.com profile] yuletide source material and I have an idea for the fic), plus things to beta, and I need to get a lot more done on moving my website.

I'm not really stressing about any of it. Not that much, at least. I've got awhile before anything is due. It's just odd, because normally I spend much more time on fandom than I do on real life, and now it's starting to reverse, and of course that's natural because fandom can't pay the bills, but still. Odd.

I might have to change my LJ name. I've been "real life dropout and online overachiever" for most of my time on LJ (meaning basically about five years, almost a quarter of my life), but now I'm not sure how well that fits, or will continue to fit. I do think I will continue to try and be on top of things in real life, because it, you know, feels very good to be on top of things.

I will need to come up with something appropriately pithy. XD

Also, I am still totally looking forward to winter break because there's a lot of fic I want to write but don't feel I have time for right now.

And on that note, I'm going to bed, because I'm going to try and get up a bit earlier tomorrow to finish something up and print some stuff out.
rynne: (written word fortune)
Random musings about a fic I'm writing, with spoilers for Doctor Who 4x01 )

Also, [livejournal.com profile] velesia and I are up to Bad Wolf/Parting of the Ways, for the next time we have enough time to watch. But I am very impatient, so I will probably end up watching Parting of the Ways before then. God, I love that episode. I love that episode. I would have no problems watching it more than once in a week. :p It's my favorite episode out of all of Doctor Who, and eeeeeee I love it, and I hope Vel loves it too.
rynne: (nine/rose grinning)
So I started getting New Who from Netflix, because I want to watch them again and Twin has her DVDs with her.

Oh, Nine, I love you. Chris Eccleston is a fantastic actor. :D And Nine is my Doctor. I love Ten a lot, but Nine...he was my first Doctor, and I guess that's just sticking with me.

Random long-winded Doctor/Rose thought about Aliens of London, plus spoilers through Sound of Drums )

Okay, so that was longer than I expected. And sort of disjointed. I hope it makes sense. :p
rynne: (dear diary...)
Today's my LJ-anniversary. I've had this thing for four years now, and have over 1,000 posts. Though I may not post as often lately as I used to, I can't really imagine leaving LJ, not even for IJ or GJ. Well, at least not unless LJ becomes so much of an asshat that even I can't hang around any longer.

Still, four years...how time flies. I can still remember starting, and settling into a posting style, and all that. Four years is a fifth of my life, and I find it somewhat astonishing that I could spend so much time on this...hobby, I guess, LJ and fandom both. But like I can't imagine leaving LJ anytime soon, I can't imagine leaving fandom as well.

I'll try to post more often. And answer comments. :p
rynne: (pinky thinking)
Something I've been thinking about, off and on, since I read DH, and I wanted to put down in words.

The prophecy had to have been about Harry--it wouldn't have worked with Neville. Not because of anything inherent in Harry or in Neville, but because of Lily and Alice. It took me a bit to really understand why Lily's sacrifice was enough to protect Harry, because surely she wasn't the only mother willing to die for her child, or just one person willing to die to protect another. The difference was that Voldemort gave her a choice, and that she chose to die for Harry rather than live and watch her son be killed is what gave her sacrifice power. But Voldemort only gave her that choice because Snape asked him to spare her. Somehow I doubt that Alice had any inner-circle Death Eaters so in love with her that they'd beg their merciless Dark Lord to spare her life.

So if Voldemort had chosen to go after the Longbottoms first, I bet he would have just killed Frank and Alice on his way to Neville as a matter of course, and then Neville would have died. Then he probably would have just proceeded on to Harry, and thanks to Lily, Harry would have still been the Boy-Who-Lived.

Ever since OotP came out, there's been a bunch of Neville-as-Boy-Who-Lived AU written, and I guess I find it interesting that it's even more AU than originally thought. Neville fit the paramaters of the prophecy, but it wouldn't really have worked for him, not unless Voldemort would have been willing to spare either Frank or Alice, which I don't think likely.

I think I need to find some more HP icons. Hmmm...
rynne: (r/s all I ever wanted)
I've been meaning to do this for awhile, but I just...never quite got around to it. XD

My thoughts on canon ships in DH )

That was long enough. Sooner or later I'll get around to thoughts on the characters--and I have a lot of those. :p
rynne: (empty swing)
I've had an odd relationship with fandom lately. It's sorta funny--for more than two years, I was pretty much strictly Harry Potter. Then Star Wars grabbed most of my attention for a year (splashed with a few other occasional fandoms), Kingdom Hearts for a few months, and now X-Files. And you know, I love all my newer fandoms, but I rather miss the days of being only HP, and having only HP people on my flist. Not because I don't enjoy reading the journals of people I've met through other fandoms, because I do, but because the people reading my LJ knew and were interested in the kinds of things that I would usually post. Part of the reason I've not been posting much lately is because I don't want to bore people who don't care about my Fandom Du Jour, and while, yeah, it's my journal and I can post whatever the hell I want in it, I feel rather like Remus in that I want to be liked, or at least interesting. But a side effect I've noticed is that, in not posting very often and in rarely commenting to others, there goes most of the friendly interaction that I count as one of the most valuable experiences of fandom.

One of my biggest problems has always been that I'm not very assertive, and that I really don't want to bother people, even if I'd like to talk to them. That's something I really need to improve on if I want to make new friends and keep up with older ones, which I most heartily do.
rynne: (imperio!)
So, way back in the beginning of February, the night before I had a 9am class, I stayed up past 5am, absolutely enthralled by this amazing fic--but when I went to bed, my predominant feeling was of dissatisfaction, because of an author's note at the very end of the fic. The next time I posted here, I mentioned that I had a lot of meta-ish rambling to do about author's notes, but that February ended up being the crappiest month I've had in a long time, so I never got around to actually rambling. But for some reason, I've been thinking about that again, so I wanted to get down my thoughts.

First, a sort-of disclaimer. I will be directly referencing the fic that inspired this, to use as an example to explain just what rubbed me so much the wrong way, though I will be fairly vague, since it's just an example, and not the main focus of this post. I'll be using examples from published authors too, contemporary and not. This ramble might end up controversial as it is, but I want to make clear that I'm not going after anyone in particular. *cough* Anyway.

There are some things I think authors just shouldn't talk about )
rynne: (skywalker)
So, I finally got around to reading Legacy of the Force: Betrayal.

Spoilers )
rynne: (demyx)
So, I've played this game all the way through three times now since I got it three weeks ago (I know, I know, very bad of me, but I couldn't help it, I love the game), so now here's some vaguely incoherent thoughts that won't get out of my head, even though I'm studying for one of my finals. Probably no one cares, since I think [livejournal.com profile] imadra_blue is the only other one on my flist who's actually played it, but eh.

Spoilers, yo, and not in chronological order )

Overall, I loved the game. Of course, I've played it through three times in as many weeks, and would probably have already started a fourth if it wasn't finals week, so. :p And now I'll shut up, since it's getting late and this thing is long enough as it is.
rynne: (happy spider)
First of all, updated the website today. But that's not the main thing I wanted to talk about.

I was reading a bunch of the posts linked to in [livejournal.com profile] metafandom today, especially the ones about pacing and tension. That, perhaps randomly, made me think about angst, so...

Watch me ramble about angst* )

*Everything here is my opinion, of course. Also, don't kill me for using the happy spider icon! I couldn't resist. :p
rynne: (not the only dreamer)
Someone at ff.net PMed me and asked to write a sequel to The Choices We Make.

Am...not entirely sure what to say. I don't particularly mind this person writing a sequel (I recognize her from one of the mailing lists I'm on, and she's pretty nice and not a stereotypical ff.net "writer"), as long as she makes it clear that even though I said it's all right, it's an unofficial sequel, because I like my fic's open ending the way it is. I don't think she'd have a problem with that.

So I'm probably going to give her the go-ahead. But...hmm, not sure how to put this--how much should I be involved? Even if it's an unofficial sequel, and even if it's not me writing it, it's still affiliated with me and my story. This person doesn't have horrible grammar, but it's not the best either (she spelled it "sequal" in the PM *wince*), and maybe it's a bit, hmmm, petty, but I don't want a story affiliated with me to have many grammar mistakes. Can I ask that I beta for her? I mean, I may have been the inspiration, but it's her story, and I don't want to force myself on her--especially since I am flattered that someone loved one of my stories enough to want to write a sequel to it.

How much involvement is reasonable? Should I be involved at all? Looking back on the original story, there are a few things I'm not entirely happy with and would rewrite, but it's still my story and I want to have a voice on anywhere someone else possibly takes it. eta: Well, maybe not a voice, per se. I wouldn't want to write it with her. Ehhh, not quite sure what I mean anymore.
rynne: (meditation)
I love the sound of rain. It's so soothing.

It's been four days. My migraines usually don't last longer than three. Why does my head still hurt?

I stayed up past 5am last night (er, this morning? In any case, not a good thing when I've got a 9am class) reading a fanfic, and went to bed with some very disjointed meta-ish thoughts on writing and reader expectation and why the author sometimes just shouldn't talk too much about the fic because readers want to imagine things for themselves.

(And actually, this goes for published stuff too. No, I'm totally not thinking about JKR's interviews, really.)

But this was a 5/6am mental ramble, and I don't remember as much of it as I'd like right now. But I was interested in it when I was thinking about it (no, really?), so I'm probably going to try and reconstruct my thoughts on it sooner or later. Preferably sooner, while the fic that prompted those thoughts is still in my mind. But not right now, 'cause I've got a fic I need to finish.

And, ironically, even given my above thoughts, I'm really tempted to write a ramble about my Luke/Vader fic--it's the very first chaptered fic (except my first two HP fics, but those were crap so they don't count) that I completely finished, and I want to talk about it. ("Walking the Sky" and "Feet on the Ground" don't count either, even though both of those are finished chaptered fics, because there's still the third part of the trilogy and if I ramble about "Feet on the Ground", for instance, I'll probably give away future plot points.)

But even if I do write that ramble, I'd put it in a separate post and under a cut so people who want to read author intentions can, and people who don't want to don't have to. I will definitely not spring it on people at the very bottom of the last chapter so they read it before they know what they're getting into.

(Though the author notes that I did unintentionally read also managed to give me more insight into why I like the pairings I like, but that's also a ramble for another day.)

Anyway, time to shut up and finish this fic so it stops plaguing me.
rynne: (the background hum)
Plot, why do you plague me so? 8,000 words into the fic (which was supposed to be just a drabble), and finally I can start the sex.

How do people write Vadersex? Half of his body is mechanical, and the other half is completely covered up almost all the time. He can't even kiss someone in a normal atmosphere without choking to death, probably. And I have to wonder (very crudely), if he even still has a working penis, after lying face down on the banks of a lava flow for who knows how long. He reminds me of Shishio from Kenshin.

Ah well, I'll make do. This fic has way too much momentum for me to be deterred, and I have a few ideas. (And, thankfully, a beta reader who will hopefully tell me if I'm being too implausible or not.)

Perhaps the most important question is, why the hell am I still awake when it's bloody 4:15 in the morning? It's a good thing that it's Martin Luther King Jr. Day, or I'd have to be in class in less than five hours. (Am back at school, btw, in case you couldn't tell. :p)

But since it is rather late, and I've got a lot to do tomorrow, I'll stop writing the fic and stop rambling here, and go get some sleep.
rynne: (more jedi touching please!)
I have written het, slash, gen, threesomes, smut (of the m/f, m/m, and m/m/m variety), noncon, Stockholm Syndrome, cross-generational sex, bestiality, voyeurism, masturbation, and character death, among other things. I know of many others who have a more impressive list than I, but those are many of the things I have written.

Now I can add father/son incest to the list--and I think it won't be long until I can add twincest, love triangle, and m/f/m threesome to it as well. *facepalm* (And yes, I did say twincest--from me! Me! But I can't imagine my twin ever reading it, so that makes it somewhat better. I think. o.O)

Anyway, I actually started this post in order to beg for a beta. Luke/Vader R (and possibly NC17) rated slash/incest. It's not yet done, but I think it'll end up being four chapters, and I'm already done with the first. And [livejournal.com profile] vikkir, you're not allowed to volunteer, because it's the drabble you requested, which demanded to be written and took on a life of its own. Post-ESB, no EU content whatsoever. [livejournal.com profile] krabapple, you're welcome to it if you like, but I didn't want to assume anything. :p Anyone?

(Randomly, I love this mood icon. Such a pretty picture of him, and it makes it even better that it's appropriate for this post.)

*goes back to writing*
rynne: (light a candle)
A couple days ago [livejournal.com profile] musesfool mentioned that if she has to sit on a story instead of posting it immediately after finishing/getting it back from beta, she constantly tweaks it. And I thought--hey, wow, I do the exact same thing. Even if I've just sent a story off to beta and am waiting to get it back, I'm constantly revising it, even if it's only inserting a word here or there, getting rid of extraneous commas (*winks at [livejournal.com profile] krabapple*), or what-have-you. What's sorta funny is that sometimes I end up fixing something that, when I finally do get the fic back from beta, my beta told me to fix, whether it's getting rid of commas, fixing typos, adding a scene to make something clearer, or whatever. I'm especially doing it with the SW chaptered fic I've got, since it's complete but not completely betad, and waiting to get the earlier chapters back gives me tons of time to fiddle with the later ones. It's almost compulsive editing, because it seems that there's always something to improve.

Sometimes I still get that compulsion after the fic is posted and therefore technically finished--especially if the fic is one of my older ones. Especially given things I've learned from my betas and can't help but start to notice now, even in my own writing before I had the betas I have--like noticing when I repeat a word too many times in a small space, thanks to [livejournal.com profile] allisonblair, or when I have tons of unnecessary commas, thanks to [livejournal.com profile] krabapple. It's a very rare fic of mine that I can look back on after a couple months have passed (anything sooner is still too recent to have completely gotten out of my head the way my older fics have) and think, hey, this is perfect, I wouldn't change a thing. They ones I do think that for also tend to be quite short.

So, part of what this ramble is leading to (apart from just being a ramble about me/my writing style), is: do fics ever end up being truly finished? As in, we're completely satisfied with them even years down the line, we have no urge to fix them up a bit more, etc. When I post a fic, I'm satisfied with it as it is at the time I'm posting it, but will that satisfaction change to discontent down the road, after my writing style's improved and I'm looking back at my old fics? Is the inability to count most of my fics truly finished because they're fics, not published novels or whatever, and I can edit them without having to reprint something? Hell, do published authors count all their printed stories as being finished?

Okay, done rambling. :p
rynne: (guitar talk)
I'm totally wondering right now if time of day has anything to do with the amount of reviews received on a fic. Because normally (lately, at least) I post fic late at night, or in the wee hours of the morning, and get a fair amount of reviews, but when I posted something yesterday afternoon, I barely got anything. Which has actually held true throughout most of my fandom career, now that I think about it--I've always gotten more feedback on things I've posted at night, as opposed to in the afternoon.

(And now the girl in me who's taken two years of statistics and a semester of psychology almost wants to do a study, to find out if there really is any correlation, but for one thing, my teachers have bleated at me that correlation does not imply causation, and for another, it's too much work to figure out how to structure such a study. :p)

Is it something about the fic/update being there when you log on for the first time, and you're just less likely to check for new fics/updates throughout the day? Hmmm...

Anyway, in case you missed it (and maybe it being late night right now as I post this will help), I posted the first chapter of Feet on the Ground yesterday. And I totally love this fic. I'm very proud of pretty much the entire thing, all 40,000 words of it, so if y'all would read and let me know what you think, I'd really appreciate it. :)

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