Life is a Cabaret

I have been so tired lately. I have avoided doing almost everything that requires effort. Including writing, which makes me feel guilty, because I still have to do the Support Stacie fic (gah I am so late, sorry, wiggiemomsi). Also, shinyopals, I am so going to be on IM more often and get a move on with Vegas-fic.

I don't think I've hit my saturation point for lazing around--I don't think I have a saturation point for lazing around XD--but I need to be more active and not spend all my time reading books and fic and watching DVDs.

School just made me feel so tired. I sort of want to tell my mom that when she starts nagging me about getting out of the house more, but since she's been a high school teacher for thirty years, plus having a Master's when I'm not even done with my BA yet, I don't really have that many grounds for complaint. :p But I was just getting so weary at the end of the semester that I was almost to the point of not caring about school so long as I had time to rest. Which feels silly to me, because I didn't even really have that big a load. My classes were not that hard, since I could keep up after not reading more than half whatever reading was assigned. I didn't have any papers or assignments so onerous that I couldn't just do them the day before. I only really studied for one of the three finals I had. Why was I so tired?

(I mean mentally more than physically, though I am physically tired as well. But I'm pretty sure that being physically tired often comes with being out of shape and having an inactive lifestyle, so I know I'm getting pretty much what I bargained for with that. Is mental tiredness a side effect?)

But on the other hand, I'm pleased I didn't let my fatigue affect me that much. I got the best grades I've had in years, and, I just found out, made the Dean's List for the first time ever. (Whoo!) So hey, even if I do get ridiculously tired, it's nice to know that I can rise above it.

Which means, it's now time to rise above it. I've had a very nice three weeks off, but now I really need to get off my ass and turn in my damn job applications and start writing my fics.

At least remixredux09 is about to start. My favorite ficathon, yay! I could always write fic I liked for this ficathon, even during my 2006/2007 Years of Deadness.

So. Soon I will go to bed, but definitely starting tomorrow, I will do job apps, fic, collaborating, and updating LJ more often. *firm nod*

ETA: OMG it's raining! *bounces* It's been raining so often the last week. And thunderstorms! I love thunderstorms. We get lots of rain in Tacoma, but very few thunderstorms. More of those in Reno, for all that there's so much less yearly rain.

ETA 2: Apparently I can't shut up and I'd rather edit my post than make a new one. I was just thinking about some fic reviews I left recently. I've always been a long reviewer when I have the time (as in, reviews so long that they take multiple comments), but I think I've really improved in noticing and talking about the nuances of a story because of my writing classes. Like, really noticing specific word choices and what they add to a story. In reviews I wrote years ago I could rhapsodize about more general things--beautiful language, characterization moments, etc--but I think taking writing classes has helped me become a better reader. My professors have always told me that reading will make me a better writer, but I didn't realize it worked the other way around too. Very cool.

So, a good few hours of my day were consumed with the FAIL Blog today. Most of these are good for a smile, and some are utterly brilliant.

( Some examples )

I otherwise spent my day doing my Oceanography take-home exam. Which we got yesterday, and is not due until the 17th. I finished it today, so now I'm basically done with Oceanography--and ALL SCIENCE CLASSES. I'm even debating not going to class the last two days because I already finished the test. XD

I still don't have a topic for the paper I need to turn in on Wednesday though, gah. Stupid class. I NEED TO HAVE SOMETHING TO WRITE ABOUT FOR 5-7 PAGES.

However, I finally have an idea for one of the fic exchanges I've got due this month! I think I will be writing that tomorrow, as well as hopefully thinking of a paper topic and starting the damn thing. *sigh*

Hah! In the past week, I've written enough Doctor Who fic to qualify for it in remixredux08. It's not quite as productive as September '05, when I wrote pretty much all of Feet on the Ground (all 41,000 words of it) in about a month, but it's very reassuring, after the rather dry years that were late '06 and '07. Much as I love reading fic, it just doesn't feel right not to be writing at least a few fics a month, and I feel like I've sorta gotten back on track.

(Though only sorta, 'cause Burnt by the Sun is still being damn stubborn. Almost enough to make me want to tear out my hair. Dammit, why won't it just, dunno, magically write itself? *sigh*)

Of course, my recent productivity might have something to do with the papers I've got due tomorrow, neither of which I've started yet. At UPS, I was totally productive fic-wise when I was procrastinating on school assignments. :p Neither of these are particularly long (one's less than a page, the other's three to five pages, double-spaced), thankfully, so I'll do them tonight, but until then, I've got fic to write! :D

I have an eight page paper due tomorrow, and the teacher is not accepting late work. Have I finished the paper yet? Have I even started the paper yet?

*sigh*

Well, at least I know what I'm going to write about. That's something.

I also know, thanks to my procrastination last semester, that I am perfectly capable of writing a passable eight page paper in four hours. That's also something.

Now let's see if I can make myself start the damn thing before midnight.