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[rynne]

My computer is working again. Thank you to tinnidawg and nandamai for the suggestions, but they wouldn't have helped; I took my computer to my local Apple store, and the tech guy said that the computer thought it didn't have a hard drive. It just burned itself out completely. I was apparently unlucky enough to have gotten a somewhat defective model, but at least it decided to burn itself out while I still had my warranty.

But my old hard drive is completely lost, unless I want to pay upwards of $800 to have some guys take it apart in a clean room and get all my stuff back. I'm really, really glad I'd already had my remix done and off to beta, or else I would have lost it and had to rewrite it less than a week before the deadline. As it was, I lost all my music again, and damn iTunes for not allowing us to re-download already purchased songs! Why do I keep forgetting to back up my music? *sigh*

The only other thing I really lost was an X-Files fic I was about five pages into, maybe half-way. I hadn't gotten around to backing it up because I'd only started it a few days before my hard drive melted, and while I have gotten better about backing things up (I did not, for instance, lose Burnt by the Sun, thank God), that was just too recent. And I'm sad, because I liked that fic. I liked what I was doing with it, where I was going.

I can rewrite the fic, of course, and I'm probably going to, because I still want to tell that story. But I hate rewriting things. Unless there was a turn of phrase I particularly liked, I don't remember my precise words, just the gist of what I was saying, and when I have to rewrite, there's always the chance that it'll turn out worse than before. There's also the chance it'll turn out better, but I've always been the type to fiddle with my sentences until I'm happy with them, and I was happy with that fic. If I lose a fic and have to rewrite it, I'm never sure if it can live up to the original version. And there's always the sense that I already wrote this, I want to move on to the stuff I haven't written yet, the stuff that's still in my head. But I can't write that until I've got the other stuff back, at least up till the point I left off; if I start writing from that point on, it might not quite fit what I'll eventually have to go back and begin with. All too often I'll have dialogue in my head that I want to get out, but I keep having to adjust it to fit the story, and I don't want to have to revise this fic more than what's already required in order to get to at least where I left off.

This fic was really flowing. Having to rewrite so much totally interrupts that flow, and already I'm reluctant to just sit down and start because I haven't felt that flow again yet. It's really annoying. Gah. *sigh*

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[pinkfinity.livejournal.com]

Do you have all your music on your ipod? Because there's a slew of programs so you can rip things off your ipod and put them back in itunes. You lose things like add-date and play-count but I think that's a worthy trade off. Let me know if you need program recs?